May 26, 2020
Why I Forced Myself to Write
Trust me, I’ve battled enough with myself about this article.
I have a love-hate relationship with writing. It’s always easy, and I get excited to read someone’s article and tap clap on it, but it’s harder to get a start one, primarily when I’m not used to writing at something.
In my opinion, writing is a form of a structure of thought, and it constantly juxtaposes to me which instead do something impulsive than planned them. Because of that, I have a big massive scattered cloud inside my head. Some might have the pros and cons of this. Having an impulsive behavior makes me not think deeply about the consequences or impact on others; the key is getting a start at it and making it done. Of course, the most challenging part of my mileage is getting a start at something. There’s too much consideration about this and that and often will end up doing nothing.
However, lately, I realized how writing was essential to me. When other people ask anything about what, why, or how I did myself do this thing, I can tell them this and that, but not in a seamless way. Because of the unstructured mind inside my head, I can’t prioritize which one I must tell first. If only I could be strict about writing down all to-do lists, I may be able to communicate far better with anyone.
Which also happens in this early year. Of course, everybody wants to be a more excellent personality for the next year ahead in 2020 (or simply what we usually call a ‘yearly resolution’). It may sound cliché, but this one is real (trust me, it is). I want to reflect on what was good or worst for me in previous times and how I can be managed it better ahead.
As a graphic designer, I did invest (perhaps) some technical skills during that time, and they can be tracked easily by my portfolio. Some of them improved, and some others still need to be fixed. But when it came to soft skills, there is almost zero physical evidence about myself. Lots of things were going up and downs on me in 2019. Some essential items, whether verbal or gesture, were shown by others that might improve my communication skills or professional manner as an individual.
Once a time, my former colleague said that writing in a journal can help relieve stress and anxiety during work. Other things that might work are doing yoga or meditation. Thanks to that, I started to apply the journal until now. With this writing thing, I can pour my random feelings and thoughts, whether it’s about ideas, excitement, anger, loss, etc.
Fun fact: I never write anything when I’m in a happy situation. It might be considered about write on this too.
Other than the above, this simple yet thoughtful article by Darren Lee Yong is one of the reasons I want to start writing an essay after reading this one several months ago. And thanks to these quarantine things, I have time to do my long overdue writing task.
So far, here’s what I’ve learned about writing:
· It can develop frameworks of thinking.
· Willing myself to express more feelings and thoughts into written text.
· Learn to concentrate without screen distractions (tough one!).
That’s it. I’m trying my best to realize this one (believe me, I’ve been writing about 7–8 drafts about my first publication, and this is must end right now).
Let’s find where this article takes me a few weeks later.
Have a great day!
